Feb. 24/14 Yesterday
we packed the bags of donations we are taking to give out to the people of El
Salvador. The fact that I am really
going on this trip is beginning to sink in and I am excited and scared. This is completely out of my comfort zone. Why did I signup? The same reason I do almost
everything. It was a spontaneous
decision because my friends are going, and I have had a curiosity to understand
what others have described as a “life changing experience”. I know, not very good reasons and this is one
reason why the fear is now setting in.
The second reason I am having second thoughts is that I have
read other blogs from our team leader, and past travellers on this mission. I
am humbled and wondering exactly what I have to offer to the people I am going
to serve? Sure, I have things….like
clothing, money, toys and candy for the kids, but I know that anyone, anywhere,
could give those things. What do I,
Kendra Broadley, have to offer these people that someone else couldn’t do much
better? I have always struggled with
evangelism. I know and love the Lord with
all my heart, soul, mind, and strength….at least most of the time…but sharing
the Gospel with those who don’t know Him has never been my strong suit. The one
time I led someone to Christ was an accident.
I thought she was a Christian and so I was telling her what I thought
she already knew. Yes, I have an
overwhelming desire for people to know the love, freedom, and joy I have found
in Christ..but all of my attempts to share with “unbelievers” have been what I
consider disasters. Friends and family
stopped calling, and avoided me or openly mocked my faith. So, I decided to go underground…I would love
them without talking about my Saviour and Lord.
That also didn’t work because then I started to avoid them…it is just
too hard not to share who I really am with people I care about. So far in my Christian life, I don’t think I
have found a middle road.
Maybe this is why I am going to El Salvador? My passion has
always been to love and serve people that God loves and wants me to serve. So far in my Christian life, that has been
mostly service to other struggling Christians.
It’s time I learned how to share my love and faith with those who don’t
know Him. In El Salvador with the encouragement and leading of people like
Denis and Valerie Nikkel, Dave Morris, Del Arseneau, and the rest of the team,
I have a feeling God will stretch me and teach me invaluable lessons that I
wouldn’t have learned anywhere else. I am excited and scared!